Grief has come for our family.It showed up in the night and cruelly replaced our joy with heartache. It came for his parents first. And then for the rest of us. Just like the virus that snuck in and stopped his heart, it spread quickly, with no regard for the havoc it was wreaking on… Continue reading Love Never Leaves
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We’re Probably in the Good Old Days
Nostalgia: a sad pleasure experienced in recalling what no longer exists.That’s what Merriam-Webster says, anyway. The older we get, the more we feel it. At least I do. I get nostalgic about the smallest things… like the days when Trixie was pitter-pattering her little feet all over the cheap linoleum floors of the kitchen. She… Continue reading We’re Probably in the Good Old Days
The Day I Signed my Life Back
Thirteen years ago, I signed a lease on a small apartment. My daughter sat beside me. I finished signing, laid down the pen, and put my forehead on the desk. And then I cried. I felt a hand on my back. My sweet 18-year-old baby grownup, Trixie, leaned over and asked softly, "Mom? Are you… Continue reading The Day I Signed my Life Back
Sleeping Bags and Summer Nights: Cousin Sleepover Memories
Ten of us slept on the porch that summer. There were 12 of us all together, though. We were a tight-knit group of cousins who saw each other as a group only once a year, but we knew each other better than the friends we surrounded ourselves with when we were apart. Family does that… Continue reading Sleeping Bags and Summer Nights: Cousin Sleepover Memories
Thoughts of Nutcrackers Dance in My Head
Do y'all ever have weird thoughts that you say out loud and then people look at you and make you wish you'd never voiced that thought? Let me give you an example. Now I'm just assuming that MOST of us grew up thinking that Toy Story was being acted out in bedrooms and playrooms all… Continue reading Thoughts of Nutcrackers Dance in My Head
Mumsies
My relationship with my mother has always been complicated. I know, I know ... we all have complicated relationships with our mothers. But the issue for me right now is that I think my mother is dying. She has dementia, which has made her at times angry, aggressive and mean. She has slowly forgotten about… Continue reading Mumsies
A little normalcy in this weirdly abnormal world.
I can hear the music in my head just looking at the picture up top. Dunh-DUUUUN-dun-dunnnnnnn ... dun-DUUUUUN-dun-dunnnn. Happy sigh. One of the many things I love about Harley is how much he loves Gone with the Wind. He passed that on to Bam-bam and we love throwing around lines from the movie. Having a… Continue reading A little normalcy in this weirdly abnormal world.
Right Now
The problem with not writing very often is that so much has happened since the last time I wrote I don't know where to start. So I guess the best place to start is just right freaking now. Now. This very moment I am sitting in my cozy living room with Harley, watching the movie Logan… Continue reading Right Now
Back to the Heart
The older we get, the more things we lose ... car keys, sunglasses, height, memory, to name a few. The other things we tend to lose are much more precious ... pets, friends, parents, family. The older I get the more I cherish the latter. We all do. Earlier this summer my family lost one of… Continue reading Back to the Heart
Sunday Funday
Green. Blue. Gold. Those are the summer colors of Kansas. Green trees ... rolling hills ..... farmland. Until I rode through the landscape on a motorcycle I never realized how many colors of green there were here. If you were to draw a picture of what we ride through you would need every green crayon from… Continue reading Sunday Funday
Roxie Rides Again 